Friday, November 6, 2009

One more road map to go.....


On Monday Kayla received Vincrystine and Methotrexate for her day 57 dose. That means that we have one more road map of hard chemo left. Then she will go into maintenance. Which is where she will only have to go to the Dr. office once a month and take a chemo pill everyday for 1 1/2 years. We might end up going to the doctor more than a few times in the beginning because they have to make sure that the pill is the right dose. They don't want to give her too much, or too little. He also said that her hair is going to fall out again. :::sigh::: This is the longest that it has been and she had been really excited about it. I broke the news to her and she seemed pretty ok with it. By now she is used to crappy things happening to her body. She has been so brave throughout the whole thing and I get my strength from her.

Jimmy got a PET scan and a CAT scan on Wednesday. They had to do the scans before starting radiation just to make sure that nothing has grown. I have to say that I am quite nervous and he is terrified. I have noticed him acting mad and upset and I asked him if he is scared of the results. Let's just say that he is preparing himself for the worst, eventhough there has been no indication that it has grown or come back. I think he just wants to be mentally ready for whatever the results say.

This past week has been really trying on me. I don't know which way is up. I am trying to be strong for Kayla and Jimmy but I don't have anybody being strong for me. They all put up a great front but for some reason I don't feel any better. And it's not like I have anybody to talk to that can relate. ugh....pity party for one please.


Stacie said...

I don't have any idea what you are going through, but from what I have read, you are a strong woman.

Remember that you do need to take time for you though. Even if it means locking the bathroom door for 5 minutes and just breathing. You have come through so many things, you will get through this.

Lilith Silvermane said...

Okay... You need to take care of yourself. I know.. I know... who am I to tell you this?

It doesn't matter.. I could be your mother, sister, friend or daughter... You need to take care of YOU, because without YOU... who would they have?

Try and do THIS:

Or how about some quick meditation:

or find me on Facebook: Suzanne Bastien

and I'm sure I'll say something totally ridiculous this weekend that might make you laugh.

OH... and for a great laugh, go and read my favorite lady:

The Bloggess

She is IT! Read through some of her stuff.. it's amazing that she still has a husband.

Take care of you! ~hugs~

annh said...

You are in my prayers,It is amazing the stength that God gives us sometimes..My Husband and I are both Cancer survivors..Kayla is a Beautiful child, and I am sure that God is watching over her..